do you remember...

randomly i'll remember things from a long time ago usually triggered from a smell or a picture or
something. it's odd how the mind works. i can sometimes have crystal clear memories of when i
was four and five years old. isn't it odd? i can't even remember what i did last week let alone
yesterday. i hate it when you can't fully remember....like when you smell something and that feeling
comes back to you of how happy you were when you were little. that's why i force myself to write
things down in my journal. i'm a little behind but i do keep a shorthand copy on my laptop. i wonder
if i will even find the time to fully lay down my thoughts on a piece of paper.

one of my fears is forgetting the best years of my life (if they even have occurred yet). it's easy
to remember the bad things, but how come it's hard to remember the good things. i still remember
getting in trouble when i was young, the bad things i did. i remember even single detail, but it's hard to remember all the good memories...is it because i've had so many of them?